I'm feel like i'm trying to kill myself if i remember him

hi,i think i hav somthing to tell its about that boy again i don't know why its too hard 4 me to forget all about him!

bnda ni just maen2 or what or someone is trying to make me crazy,sy x rsa dye laen drpd yg laen,he just a normal boy,have a feeling,heart n all about human but why i still miz him?lov him? thinking about him?

today sy x blh tidor coz pkew sal dye!,skrng haty sy rsa cem gelisah,rsah,n rasa trpikew pkew sal dye WHY!!! WHY!!! tlglah da brpa bulan aq thn semua ni.....! da penat aq hidup dlm keadaan yg mcm nie...

u know lps jer brpisah ngn dye,well theres sumthing terible happen to me,i lost averything i have!!! all of it!! did he know ma feling???why he make me like this! everybody really hates me everybody don't trust me again!!! better i go to another places that will make me 2 forget all of this!! i swear! he will get all that things back!!! I SWEAR!